.sengal or single???

uhuhu... malam suda larut, mungkin dah menjengah pagi... i cant sleep, awake for nothing, buat mende mengong. tengok muka buku, jumpa kawan lama kat sana, huh semua dah besor, grown up, dah tua. tahun neh, me will be 22. amat bahagia, seketika ini, harap Allah kekalkan bahagia ini selalu. aku single. aku suka frasa tuh, awalau aku tak penah nak masukkan my status dekat muka buka, buat apa??? penting ker nak masukan kat situ then cakap "kita singlet"hahahaha. we dont have to advertise ourself, thats too*yawn*

when the times comes, it will just happen. tak perlu nak jadi wanita ayu, pretend for something that not us.(bagi aku la) kenapa?? takut jadi single?? kalau sekadar nak jadi "pair" sebab ramai manusia lain pun "pair" jugak, *what the heck?? malu?? sebab umur dah nak graduate tapi belom ada "pair"?? *childish. kanak-kanak pun akan ketawa bagai nak rak kalau dengar.

"wanita baik untuk lelaki baik". kenapa nak sibuk kejarkan lelaki baik??? kejar benda dalam tangan, diri sendiri . hmm aku pun belum cukup baik untuk lelaki yg baik, panggilah aku sang materialis atau apa, aku cuma harap ditemukan dengan lelaki baik, malu kerna aku masih belum sesuai. banyak yg kurang sana sini. aku masih mencari diri membetulkan diri, ya betul.. selamanya kita takkan jadi sempurna, tapi takkan kerana tu kita nak berhenti mencuba.

kalau kita milik bersama, Allah akan temukan, pergilah kemana ja, alih-alih ada je yang mendekatkan. tak perlu sibuk nak bagitahu karekter lelaki idaman.. that's totally ridiculous, kamu mengaku cintakan seseorang, tapi kamu cakap kamu cintakan dia sebab dia caring, responsible, pandai masak and so on. logik kah?? kalau dia dah tak pandai masak, tak caring lagi, dah lupa tanggungjawab.... cinta pon hilang?? begitu?? mudah klasifikasikan hati sendiri... tanpa alasan sebenarnya, kalau kita cintakan dia.. tanpa apa-apa yg perlu membatasi. tak sempat nak fikir karekter dia, kalau cinta kitatetap akan cinta dan kalau dia pergi.... biarlah dia pergi, asalkan dia bahagia.

entah, aku bukan si expert cinta. hahaha. umur 22 bukan menjadikan aku expert dari budak 13 tahun, aku selalu mengelar diri sang optimist. tapi aku skeptic yg yang tak mahu lukakan hati sendiri, aku pilih wajar menunggu yang satu. aku perasan modern, tapi aku pompuan kuno yg penakut. *

enjoykah single?
tanpa ragu-ragu aku jawab yesh!!

aku tak perlu jadi pelapor semua kegiatan, pegi kelas, balik kelas, makan ke blum, nak pakai baju kaler apa and so on. perlu ker?? kadang-kadang izin mak ayah pon kita tak minta, tapi gigih minta izin si dia, yg belum tentu siapa2 pada masa depan. *aku tak kata bercinta tak elok, tapi berpada-padalah.. berlebihan tu boleh mendatangkan riak...

aku tak payah pegang handphone 24/7. aku ini amatlah pelupa, lupa charge telepon, kedekut nak topup ;P, suka silentkan phone and forgot kat mana letak. then, aku takkan jadi peserta realiti cinta yang baik, hari pertama dah out. hahahaha.


aku bukan si manis. aku bercampur baur, aku jarang manis, banyak masam and pahit dan kadang-kadang masin. aku kasar, oleh kerana semua orang sibuk mencari karakter, aku memang kalah tanpa bertanding*aku memang tak ingin bertanding pun. aku bukan perempuan sweet yang cakap manis-manis, eii aku geli. hahahahahaha.

i choose single.
dan kalau dah cukup umur, ikut je kot sapa pilihan my ayah and mak.
they know me better than myself.


hahahahahahaahhaha

.cik kiki.

.my biggest acknowledgement of appreciation

trying to sorok muka sendiri*haha

huhu, sebenarnya entry neh aku shud post semalam. hmm, semalam my busy day (rabu), pagi adae kelas critical reading, hmm tutor. then my english literature tutor class, huhu then my public speaking class, then lecture for my english literature, then my public relation tutor class. aku penat tahap gaban, uh penat amat. cuaca pulak agak panas, malam tu rase macam nak demam, tak sempat nak bloggy coz aku tido awai, then prepare for my presentation today(khamis).

kerana selasa malam rabu sebelumnya, aku amat sibuk prepare for my public speaking speech, last minute preparation, and its went awesome the next day, thanks to aina and bell coz willing to be my model that day.*huhuhuhu, amat hepi. aku juga amat bezi menulis belog malam tuh kerana mata takleh tido, and around 5 am aku tido sekejap sebab nak gain some tenaga, kang blur lak my otak yg sediakala blur...hahaha. before sleep, buat kerje tutorial for my critical reading.

my critical reading class the next day was really enjoying, amat best.we had a debate dgn tajuk " size does matter?". when our beloved DR ask us tentang tutor task, adoiyai..................... aku tersalah wat soalan, and the DR said that nak jadikan tugasan tutor tu as quiz. aha,*satu lagi kenyataan yg mengejutkan.

aku yg amat gigih menjawab soalan-soalan tu pada malam sebelumnya, mula hilang arah.*tapi as always, aku pretend la mcm optimist, minta DR kasi lebey time aku nak wat the real question that i supposed to do, DR tu macam tak kasi. she keep mention about one student that ponteng her lecture the day before(selasa), which is me, akula manusia tak guna yg ponteng kuliah dan sedang menerima pembalasan atas dosa sendiri. dah mula redha dah.

she said" if u want to do another question then all of your friend should do the question that you do then". uh, ade process reverse osmosis la pulak.

aku jawab"DR, its kinda majority, better me do their question rather than they do mine.. i'm the one that make mistake... we follow majority,*sambil gelak ketawa cover"

she said"i'll put on my blog today saying that, the student that do not go to my class yesterday had answer the wrong tutorial question today..

aku jawab"owh DR, u had a blog... how about exchange our link.. bla bla( something like that)"

she said"owh, u dont want to know it(her blog), i always talk about my student.. not a very good one"

aku jawab"owh DR, i dont mind(curious voice)

she said"instead using ur name, i often use ur 3 last no of ur matrix no, uh like u shakirah, i'll call u 304"

aku jawab"ok DR, i'll try to google my matrix no then....lol(sempat lagi dok bergelak ketawa aku, tak sedar diri salah wat keje).. hmm can u give me sometime i'll try to send(the task) this evening...

she said"i'll meditate this matter................

class continuue,

then she said, "everyone can sent the tutorial task tomorrow"

then me answer"DR, i'll say thank you on my blog then"

she laughed.

and i really mean it...... thank so muck DR, mucho2.......
and really sory for being the talkative, the naughty, the mess up, the trouble maker in your class.

lots of thanks,
;)
.cik kiki.

.my subjects for this sem

uh, sila lihat siapa sedang membaca buku*keajaiban sedang berlaku,hahah
(pic was taken, last sem @lib)

semester baru, eh actually dah masuk minggu ke 5 dah*if i not mistaken la=P. since dah tak tahu nak mengomel ape, and kinda nak membasuh kembali otak aku yg berkarat and juga membuat peringatan kepada diri ini. lets talk about what subject did i took this semester.

uh, ada 4 major paper this sem, ops forgot to tell u all what exactly my major, aku amik khusus english language studies and minoring in communication studies. pada semester ini otak aku telah dan akan bertambah serabut dengan,

1. oral communication and public speaking. ini adalah subjek tanpa exam, there will be 4 speech yg kena present depan manusia lain, satu speech dah lepas, speech to inform; which i talk about "how to wear dress according to your body figure". then esok will be my next speech, dan aku amatla terhegeh-hegeh menulis belog.*kiki bkn contoh student yg baik,huh

1. critical reading and writing. subjek yg melatih membaca n menulis dgn kritikal,huhu.*p/s; aku baru je terponteng kuliah subjek neh pagi tadi, uh... again i'm not a good example...hahaha. end of this semester, kena writing a critique. uh, cant wait that!!!

1. style and contemporary litreture in english. uh, i like this subject, mucho2...;) we have to read about 5 compilation of short stories, every book 5 stories.. err, depend la. then kena try to understand style of the author, kenapa dia used certain event dalam storynyee. aku sukee. tutorialnya paling best, its conduct by my lecturer's phd student, miss tahire... kelas yg sgt happy*cik kiki sedang bersikap bias,...

1. psycholinguistic. subjek hari isnin, dari lecture hingga tutorial all together straight away. konsentrasi hanya pada sejam pertama, selebihnya 2jam aku membuat kuliah sendiri dalam minda. haha. ui, subjek neh focus pada brain anatomy*seingat aku la... and how brain menjana language.. agak2 gitula lebih kurang:p minggu depan ada kuiz... and kena wat research gak tentang special person such as; down syndrom, autisme, dyselexia, alzheimer and ada lagi kot.. tentang macamana diaorang produce language. sabtu neh kitaorg are going to pulau tikus, pegi center kat sana...... then jalan2...huhu

my minor paper satu je sem neh. kiki amik, unit dan penuh;(

1. public relation. kelas yg bahagia. kenapa?? hari jumaat hanya kelas neh je, 8-10 pagi.... huhuhu... then jumaat adalah hari balek rumah*dah berapa minggu aku tak balek...hahaha. macam mass com neh, we have to chose certain subjek yg kita nak, ada media management, journalism, script writing, television studies, cinema studies, and so on. so aku pilih public relation, lagi dua belum decide, but i kinda suka script writing..... uhuhuhu, maybe wat elective kut.. ntah, karang fikir.

then, satu subjek universiti.

1. general english. nie kira macam subjek wajib la, mcm its already designed for certain school,mcm budak sains kena wat saintifik english kalau tak salah management kena wat bussiness english and so on.. gitula kot(malas nak explain) *pemalas amat aku neh... uh, khamis aku gak ada presentation for this subjek. adakah minggu neh minggu presentation sedunia?????

semua subjek itu berjumlah 19 unit, ala rugi satu unit tau. tula kalau tak aku nak wat teori and penyelidikan komunikasi sem neh, tapi its already fix to budak major komunikasi je la pulak. takpe, ade la great thing yg Allah dah takdirkan. wish me lots of luck sem neh, nak dekan sem neh. insyaAllah.


go go kiki.
u can do it.
.cik kiki.


p/s; kenapa semua no subjek yg aku listed jadi no 1. belaka??? sebenarnya typing error, hmm but maybe its better that way, to show some sense of priority.....huhuhuhuhu *kiki sila sedar diri....study weh