.saddest love story (:

10th Grade:-
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
And wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
And I knew it.
After class,
She walked up to me and asked me for
The notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
And gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
That I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.

11th grade:-
The phone rang. On the other end,
It was her. She was in tears,
Mumbling on and on about how
Her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over
Because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
Soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
And three bags of chips,
She decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks'
And gave me a kiss
On the cheek..I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.

Senior year:-
One fine day she walked to my locker.
'My date is sick' she said,
'hes not gonna go' well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
We made a promise that
If neither of us had dates,
We would go together just as 'best friends'.
So we did.
That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as She smiled at me
And stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- 'I had the best time, thanks!'
And gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
That I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.

Graduation:-
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body
Floated like an angel
Up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine-but
She didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
She came to me in her smock and hat,
And cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
And said- 'you're my best friend,
Thanks''s and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
That I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.

Marriage:-
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now.
And drive off to her new life,
Married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
But she didn't see me like that,
And I knew it.
But before she drove away,
She came to me and said 'you came !'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
That I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.

DEATH:-
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
Of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service,they read a diary entry
She had wrote in her high school years
This is what it read:
'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
But he doesn't notice me like that
And I know it.
I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
And I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me, he loved me !

..........'I wish I did too...'

I thought to my self, and I cried.






 

*currently reading: letter from the unknown women the novel version, cerita itu adalah sedih gila dari yang ini (: 

 

.40 perkara a survey

[1] Are you straight? yes!!

[2] Where is your default picture taken? profile pic? its taken at quensbay

[3] What is your middle name? siti nurshakirah suhaimi, so i guess nurshakirah la kot kan?

[4] Do you have a crush? perhaps

[5] Does your crush like you back? *grumbles* i dont know

[6] What is your current mood? lost and mengantuk

[7] What are you looking forward to? to sleep

[8] What makes you happy? people that i love happy

[9] Look at a poster in your room, what's on it? no poster, just some reminder notes about assignment

[10] What are you not looking forward to? to keep awake like this while my rumate tidor dgn happy, sucks

[11] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be? i dont want to be any

[12] Have you ever had a near death experience? yes, sebab bengong pegi lintas jalan tanpa tengok plus rabun, almost got hit by car, i just simply stand there sebab terkejut and the driver was crying sgt teruk, alhamdulillah takda apa

[13] What was the last phone conversation you had about? oh kavitha called me tadi and ask me to gmail some notes to her and ratha

[14] The song stuck in your head? vanilla twilight

[15] What is your desktop background? black background as mcrsoft just detect my window are not original, hahaha and i cant change to other background plus malas nak format

[16] what are you wearing? shirt, speck and kain batik, heeh

[17] When was the last time you cried? last night while reading the real story behind "vanilla twilight" songs, super sad!!!

[18] Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? nope and never

[19] If you could have a super power what would it be? psychic, to read somebodys heart

[20] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? tak pakai tudung

[21] What do you usually order from Starbucks? tak penah g starbucks pon, haha

[22] What's your biggest secret? i want it to remains secret, hehe

[23] Who makes you the happiest? orang-orang yang i sayang

[24] Who makes you the most depressed? hah,

[25] Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows? when with ecah, oh yes i watch it,haha

[26] What are you eating or drinking at the moment? coffe plus tesco's chocolate drink, mixed it together, super sedap!! haha

[28] What's your favorite smell? my mum

[29] If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?? sitinurshakirahsuhaimi

[30] When was the last time you had a hug? last night! mel hugged me as she'd go to perhimpuan anak serawak at upm

[31] What do you want most in life? happy family dunia ilal akhirat

[32] What/who are you thinking about right now? faraway star 

[33] What should you be doing? sleeping but i cant sleep, huh

[34] What's you favorite candy? chocolate

[35] How often do you laugh? depend on my mood

[36] Do you like working in the yard? sometimes ketika kerajinan melanda

[37] What are you doing this week? assignment, assignment

[38] Do you act differently around your crush/significant other? i'm singlet but i think that, we shud just act the way we are, thats the best way,

[39] Who was the last person to make you cry? adam young the singer of owl city by his blog

[40] Did you lie at all during this survey? nope

.penang mendung (:

i thought i'd drop you easily

but that was not to be

you burrowed like summer tic

so you invade my sleeps and confuse my dreams

turn my night to sleepless itch

                                      -owl city

penang yang mendung, tiada bintang

really miss the star!!!